in the belly of a shark: Archive

I act like I don’t care about anything, but I fucking hate myself. I know that if I care too much I’ll just get hurt, but nothing hurts more than dying inside and putting on a smile. I wish, someone would notice and actually bother caring about me enough to be there when I need them the most, when I normally lock myself away and drink or smoke myself to sleep, wishing there was another...

Feb 25th

Feb 17th

just pierced my ear twice. fucking hurt man wouldn’t go in D:

Feb 15th

I want to be skinny, even just a few months ago I was getting there, how I’ve managed to put on 4-5stone since then I don’t know. I want to see my bones again, to be vaguely happy with how I look, I literally gain weight when trying to diet.

Feb 12th

telling my friend “if i had it my way, I’d anally rape him with a splintery pole, then set it on fire and shove it down his throat” because I dislike the person she’s “seeing”

Feb 7th

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I may look happy, but honestly dear, the only way I’ll really smile is if you cut me ear to ear

Feb 5th

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So last night it snowed, I was too drunk/ high to realise this until now, and looking back on facebook it should have been quite obvious.

Feb 5th

Wake up at 12. Start drinking at 2. Sitting in my room, by myself. I’m so cool. This is my life when no one wants to see me.

Feb 4th

Jan 31st

Fuck this. Fuck feelings. Fuck the past. Fuck caring about people who have forgotten I even exist, and probably never even cared. Fuck the pain. No matter how much I say it, I’d still go back, to feel like I have some purpose in this shitty world. Now I’m just fucking lost. Left behind by everyone.

Jan 30th

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Jan 30th

33 notes

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Jan 30th

395 notes

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Jan 30th

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Seriously thinking I’ll be forever alone. I hate this. Everyone says I’ll find someone amazing, but no one ever wants to be that person… I’m just the “friend”. I’m never good enough for anyone, no matter what they say. I’m just hopeless. Rant over.

Jan 30th

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MOTHER FUCKING YEAH. So thought I had a male n female dragon. Then got told they’re both male, so I had to separate them. Now one of them is pregnant. Seems legit. But the pregnant one is the one I was told was a male from the start. Stupid people not knowing how to sex dragons. BUT OMFG BABY DRAGONS.

Jan 21st

Jan 16th

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Piercings I want: septum tongue snake bites or spider bites? scaffold more on my ears. Why can I only get ear ones? Can’t wait until I move out, hate having pointless bullshit rules.

Jan 3rd

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I want you to lead me, take me somewhere, don’t want to live in a dream one more day..

Jan 3rd

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